On giving it all or giving nothing at all…

There’s certain situations, which allow us to prove ourselves work, relationships etc, we got the choices of doing our best, just average or don’t even try at all. Right?

What I’ve noticed is that sometimes it doesn’t depend on you; a person can give their all and still wouldn’t be enough.

It’s weird I was talking about it this morning on how people that don’t even try sometimes do better than those who really want to make things work .

So how is it done? As of late with all the thing going on in my life , I became really positive and very willing to try and give myself chances in areas where I know would be hard for me to be comfortable..

But tell me isn’t it disappointing when you try to achieve something really hard and you see it all just crumble down, and ever effort you did every night you spend thinking about how to improve, just being completely useless..

Maybe I think too much about these things, but I guess sometimes is better to just do what has to be done without trying to be great , learn to be neutral.. If you are reading this you might perfectly understand what I’m talking about or be asking yourself …” Man I should get to work and close this thing”

The things I talk about are the guy working extra hours just to check the meeting material is perfect.

The girl who thinks of ways to keep a relationship.

The student who decides to wake up at 3am to study a bit more before the test.

I wonder if sometimes all this is worth it… because sometimes (and don’t think I’m a pessimist” what has to happen , happens no matter how hard you try to avoid it or to try to make it better.

Why am I an antisocial?

Every single day I have to catch certain buses, thing is every time I get on.. the same people is there.. not a problem..

I am reading my book.. in peace when I hear certain conversations which I cant help to listen to since the level of the voice is very high…

So I hear these people talking about a poor guy that works with them .. imitating his voice, cracking up saying he looks like some dog..trying to agree on a nickname..

When I look back.. I see these people are around 30 yrs of age..having a blast talking about this other person..

I don’t know what level of weird I am .. or what level of normality do I have..

But honestly when I sit in a cafe and I have a coffee and look outside, I find some people really dull..

Respect.. its basic for everything, for working for other people in general we should have respect for everyone their looks,decisions all..

I honestly get so disappointed..

as Nietzsche wrote once ” ..at one time we were monkeys and still men are more of a monkey than any monkey…” (Thus Spoke Zarathustra)

I don’t understand people and people don’t understand me…

I don’t find a guy screaming at the street some comment about boobs.. flattering.. (some actually do)

I don’t find a racist joke funny..

I think everyone has a space, and that space should be respected..

As soon as a person makes a change whether in the way he/she thinks… lives its life.. or a physical change..

that person gets pointed at .. talked about made fun off..

I find it so unnecessary ..

and this would be me rambling, about a topic some people agree with ..

I think we should try to learn more, read more,  talk more, but do all this.. to make us a better person…

Sadly right now everywhere I look I find people that’s not interested in nothing but ¨have a good time¨.. when for them a good time is get waisted…have random sex.. and all this that are just plain not fulfilling for me in any way..

So then I think .. yes I don’t want to meet anyone, yes I try to read people before giving them any sort of trust…I’m protective with my few good friends..

I enjoy sitting on a table and speak of literature, speak of psychology.. drink coffee until a caffeine rush comes haha!

I’m happy in my own little circle , in my own corner of earth..

and I’m an antisocial because I really don’t want to mess with the rest..

I rather see them be happy because someone is ugly, or because their buttt look good in some jeans..because someone they didn’t like got fired..

These sort of happiness.. i will never understand..