Pablo Picasso, studio, La Californie.
Jean Michel Basquiat
Judy Pfaff studio
Claude Monet in his studio.
Pierre Auguste Renoir in his studio
That this is supposed to be a jewelry blog.
I have reached the conclusion that this year has decided to fly past me, and while it might not be my most productive year, it might just be the most furtive.
Over the last few months, this just happen to go in the right direction and I am quite pleased with everything right now, I know! every time I actually write in this blog, I often comment on what I am trying to do to have some order in life and work
It has been an everyday process since last year.. remember the breakfasts ? Those still happen and have worked wonders, it is quite difficult to decide to do something, to change something and actually do it, how hard can it sometimes be to realize that knowing yourself and working in your well being is pretty much the answer to many problems, only now I am seeing the result.
Now although I have like 12 hours a week of true work, I am not stressing as much about anything really and I feel calm, so so calm, this is because I finally dived into creative escapes, there is more drawing,more reading, more paint and experiments and all is so personal without that constant pressure of it all ending in a solid jewelry piece in my hand.
I will talk about this later with more detail.
For now, I am preparing for a couple of summer craft fairs so more groups like these will be more common around this place.
Some of these pieces will make it to the shop, before the end of the week.
I have to go work now, but one more thing!
Listen to her..
I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life. And I am horribly limited.
It is a feeling that no matter what the ideas or conduct of others, there is a unique rightness and beauty to life which can be shared in openness, in wind and sunlight, with a fellow human being who believes in the same basic principles.
I want to taste and glory in each day, and never be afraid to experience pain; and never shut myself up in a numb core of nonfeeling, or stop questioning and criticizing life and take the easy way out. To learn and think: to think and live; to live and learn: this always, with new insight, new understanding, and new love.
I have an on an off relationship with the internet. There are times , happy times where I give in and do everything I am supposed to do, I list things in the site, my facebook fan page is filled with content and then I also get caught in the cyberspace looking at beautiful images,reading for hours,you know those hours that leave us a little bit guilty.
There are also seasons where I look at her over my shoulders (I think it’s a she) and feel distant and I don’t want to touch the computer, I feel trapped and little speeches are born inside my head where I justify why I shouldn’t be online, even when sometimes it is part of work…
This comes and goes and it has been the same for a few years now, first it was love at first sight but over time the magic of the beginning faded and sometimes it feels afixiating.
Oh we have built something, without her help my story would be very different and like with any old friend, I am not planning to go completely away anytime soon, but let me tell you sometimes I feel the need to open a window, breath and go back to those older times where we had no necessity of being in front of a screen…
Piero Fornasetti tema et variazoni
Let me start by saying that 2012 was the year that turned me upside down, shook me and for a second it made me feel like I was in the middle of a tornado.
Ermm a bit dramatic I know!
But anyways after almost drowning in all the madness, I found myself in total peace and looking at myself for who I truly am for the first time.
Today it makes me smile to write about this and to be able to share it with you, believe me life never sends us anything we can’t handle, and although it might sound a bit corny every single day we have the chance to change.
I see my flaws clearly, I learned how and why I react to things the way I do, how by being hard on myself I have harmed me, and at the end it is all a process, It took me 7 months to adjust, moving to Spain, missing my family and friends, the fairs, the life I had made and was used to, the drastic change was not easy, it was not my first time moving away from my country but I guess this time changing a continent and knowing I can’t just grab a plane whenever I want made a big difference.
So I was stuck, with being and dealing with myself and all these different emotions, to be honest with you the biggest problems I have is that I think too much, I am too sensitive, I can also be a little impatient, as time went by I learned that our flaws are a part of us, is not something that we should try to remove from our personality but try to change the focus from negative to positive.
How can we use our flaws to our advantage?
This brings me to my resolutions, mmmm thinking to much, I know will keep doing it but I will try to keep my mind busy so all this rambling going on in my head will be put to a good use, when I am busy I don’t have time to think or make a big deal out of little things.
So I am back to studying, for the last two months I have enrolled in history lessons, literature and starting next week drawing lessons again, so this year I plan to keep that up, it’s wonderful because since I work from home, this forces me to come out of the house, grab a one hour train to Valencia, which give me two full hours for reading, without feeling I should be doing something else, I have to study, I have homework and again there is sooooooooo much to read, I am in love.
For the being too sensitive, I plan to let it all out.. how? by buying 27 boxes of kleenex and doing a crying marathon for two weeks, maybe not! …I think our emotions are important and should never be hidden, expressing them in some way is truly necessary, there are certain things that feed our soul, music,reading,writing, I plan to absorb as much as I can and do my best to translate this to jewelry.
As for patience, I promise to enjoy the ride. Meditation helps so much to clear your mind and to slow down. Learning to live a relaxed life is not that easy but is possible.
This is all for now, Happy 2013 to all of you that have stopped by this spot. I hope that your never give up on your goals and that above all that you are and make those your love happy.